Timeless Place

It did not go well. My sister lost both of her precious children today in court...

I had some outbursts in the court room because what was being done was not in the best interest of the children... the judge flat out told me that. I was almost thrown out of the courtroom at one point. The Division of Family Services tried to have me banned from the court room, but because my sister's attorney called me as a witness and I also had my own petition for guardianship to be heard I was able to stay for some of the proceedings.

As hard as I pushed I could not make them see how terribly wrong their decisions were for these children. I was frustrated by the sheer injustice the system had for these babies.

My sister said that I was appearing "unstable" because of my outbursts. Someone aught to appear unstable when a judge tells you that what is best for the children is not the concern, that only the law is.... someone aught to appear unstable with that!!!!!

Then, after the hearing I fell apart... my sister was disappointed in me for losing it... but someone aught to fall apart when the children's best interests are not the state's concern! Someone aught to lose it!!!!

This world is not a fair place and the only respite you will have here is the one you find inside of yourself. To look for it outside of you is to chase a ghost that does not exist for ever and ever and ever and ever.

If you stood with me today (Monday), then help me to accept what is tomorrow...

Because I am having a hard time finding a single stred of peace right now!

Namaste!