The Separateness Hurts!
Shattered! The separateness hurts... but let me inspire you to persevere! Often when I write things, or think things reality has to come along and bash me in my face! I was shopping for food today and a lady was at the register with all of her food in her cart and the belt was running. She was asking the cashier a bunch of questions, so I started to put my food on the belt. Well, my food rolled all the way up to the register and this lady (who had all her food still in her cart) was angry! She said, "your food is in my way!". I said, "well, are you going to put your food up or not?"
This started a very loud, embarrassing, transaction of words between this lady and myself. It seemed to go on forever. The whole front of the store seemed to close in around me and felt like it was only one small room I was standing in. This lady began to get hateful over me wanting to buy my food! Hateful! She started to curse at me, she pushed my food back on the belt, and got in my face. There were about 25 people stopped in time watching us argue.
I asked for the store manager to come and it was a young girl that looked to be around 19 years old. She just looked helplessly at this woman yelling at me. Then the woman said, "I should hit you over the head with one of those cans!". And that was it....................... I was ashamed for the entire human race, myself included!
The lady finally did buy her food ( "and I am going to take my time") and move out of the line still yelling stuff. A group of store employees were standing at the bottom of the check out line by now and all insisted that the store manager walk me out to my car.
How low can we go????? Yes, I said "we"... you, me, this lady, everyone who was watching the sad scene.....
I left the store today so upset that we are so disconnected with each other that we can manage to hate one another over something so small.... over anything at all. This lady thought that her and I were two beings... she thought one was right and one was wrong... she felt justified in reaching a state of hatred toward a piece of her OWN SELF!
Lord, help us! May we see through your eyes one day and know that the way we perceive things is all wrong....
May we remember that we are all tiny pieces of one whole...
May we realize that what we do and say to one another is what we are doing and saying to ourselves!
There will be no peace until our journey crosses that bridge! Keep on going... don't give up! I see some light at the end of the tunnel... at least I think that's light!
Namaste!
Monday, June 16, 2008 at 08:53PM
Reader Comments (3)
Hi Stef,
I am sorry about what happened. I've had similar experience in the past, maybe a couple of them, but did not create much scene. Nevertheless, the pain was the same. I know we are all supposed to be one because we all are created by the Most Powerful One of all. But since the dawn of man's existence, we all have been separated seems like into 2 groups. Instead of simply being children of the universe, we've become either children of light or children of darkness. In this sense, we are separated from one another.
But consider, because of how I physically feel today (headache), this morning I kind of snapped at my 2 older ones and I am sure it hurts them, and I am sorry for that. This brings the possibility of not just hatred being present in that woman's heart but also other factors personal to her may be involved. So do not despair and take it very personal. I know it hurts when it happens and it feels very personal. You were in her "wrath's path" (maybe for that day's, maybe in her life's) when it happened and that it could have been someone else. You are a wonderful person and those who know you Believe that the incident was not in any way caused by you.
But going back to the separateness issue, it does hurt that we are all separated but know that God's promise is that one day, we all will truly be one in Spirit - and Love will bring us back together.
Love,
Anna
Stef,
Why is it that you always have those type of 'adventures' lol? I must admit, I found myself laughing at the way the lady responded to you although I know that it was less than humorous at the time. When I usually encounter people such as the lady that you encoutered, I usually respond with something that really throws them off. I told this woman once that it sounded like she needed a glass of wine and a bubble bath when she started yelling at me for something I don't even remember. After her initial shock at my reaction, I think she got madder, lol..and I laughed. Then I said, I think I need that glass of wine and a bubble bath...lol...you gotta remember, most everyone else thinks about only themselves and could care less about how they are affecting you or your life..unfortunate, but true...at least you have a blog which is some sort of outlet..you should have given the lady your webpage and told her that she needed to visit to have some sort of inspiration..lol..
Love,
Sherron
Sherron,
This is supposed to be drama, you made it comedy...lol! I like your sense of humor. I guess we should handle most things this way to lighten up life. Keep up the laughter! Take care and I miss your smile :-)
- Anna