Fear

What can I say about fear? It holds us back from advancing. As Oriah says, there is no use in denying it; you merely give it free reign to rule in your heart and mind. I know a lot about fear. I have lived with it my entire life. Right from the very beginning until today fear has had a promonate place in my life. Not in every minute mind you, but it is there lurking in the shadows waiting for a time and place to be made known. It scans the horizon of my mind looking for reasons to inject me with pain. I am slowly learning how to deal with this fear and the damage it is creating in my life. I try to recognize the very beginning of the feelings and then immediately start to discredit them.

Oriah speaks of how we greet our fear. What an interesting word selection don’t you think? Most of us do not attempt to greet our fear. If anything we try to avoid it and pretend it is not there, or we try to push it so far back into our minds that we cannot quite feel the pricks of pain it causes. Perhaps we should greet our fear head on? Perhaps we should welcome the thoughts and feelings it stirs up inside of us so that we can deal with it and get rid of it as soon as possible or more importantly ... learn from it?

“Fear of being the fool”, oh how this limits us and our ability to create our dreams! I learned years ago not to be afraid of being the fool. Life is like the saying: there is no stupid question. There is no right or wrong way to live it. We all live it to the best of our abilities. This is all we can hope to do. Why should we be sorry for the way we are? Give up your fear of being the fool. There are no fools, there are only people living and relating to each other. Be who you are and love that being!

We can use fear to grow if we think about it differently. If we can confront it and embrace it, understand it and heal... we can one day feel whole!

Yesterday I was tired; tired of packing, of doing, of pushing myself. I took naps. I took care of myself. I knew what I needed and I lovingly gave it to myself. I am very important to me. Not in a selfish way, but a loving way. If we cannot take care of ourselves lovingly then how can we attempt to take care of others lovingly? I am learning so many wonderful things in my 40’s; things I wish I had known earlier in my life. But there is a time and season for everything… move into your time… your season… only you can walk this road!

Have peace!