Searching

I don't know what you do on a daily basis, but I can tell you what I do. I search for me. Who am I? Why am I here? What does it all mean? And yes... what if it all does not mean anything? What then?

Me:

Born

parents split

foster homes

living with emotional and physical abuse from father

Married first boyfriend in Navy

Horrible split from that, left alone in VA Beach

Met a nice man in Coast Guard

Went with him across country to CA

Married him, had three children

Lonely marriage caused me to have major depression

in utter despair moved out of family home

Attended college for nursing

after one year, moved back in with husband

It all fell apart again

packed his stuff up, went to college

Filed for divorce (he was with someone else)

Met nice man (after 7 long years of hoping for marriage) Chris

Graduated with 4.0, AA degree in Computer Information Systems

Got a great job with news paper, systems analyst

People were mean overall, hated it

Got laid off.... total shock

Bought a business (Medical Billing-$20,000)

Failed

Had two pulmonary embolisms in one week

Experienced one of the major hurts in my life (I'll tell you about it sometime)

Started this website, believe I have something to give to others  (love)

Family decided to downsize (move into smaller home) so that I can try to find "my path" (eternally grateful)

Trying to find my path (with your help)

Make a list like mine and share it with me, and if you'd like I will post it! (you can remain anonymous! It may be good for your soul..? and someone elses!)

Above all.... have peace!